I'm not entirely certain if acrophobia is the problem, but I can't figure out how to explain this increasing anxiety I feel around every impending flight lesson. Wheras the days of ground school I feel frustrated, overwhelmed but kind of excited to learn, I have noticed that days when I have a flight lesson booked fill me different sensations entirely: My stomach begins a mild churn the night before, and general anxiety grips me throughout the lesson and periodically prior to it when I think about it. When I am actually IN the aircraft, I notice additional physical factors: dry mouth, physical tension, occasional panic.... it is a strange combination indeed, and one I am not sure how to shake.
Today, I went in with a plan to consolidate my minimal pre-existing understanding from the previous lessons: Re-visit "straight and level flight" from last week, and "movements and attitudes" from the week before, then, when I felt confident, move on to "Climbs" and other new stuff on Monday afternoon, my next lesson.
Alas, I was more nervous than ever!!!
I wonder if perhaps shorter, more frequent lessons might help, or maybe ONLY flying on calm, clear days... ??? This unexpected twist is a bit, well, unexpected! The most bizzarre part is that I have no idea how to resolve it. Another strange feeling, lol!
I guess we'll have to wait and see what happens on Monday.